Today didn't go so well.
The doc asked me a lot of questions and did a fair amount of small tests to see what my tremor was and to test my reflexes, and the conclusion i've been sent away with is that it's probably nothing and i'm probably always going to have it.
Rather embarrassingly, I started crying, I didn't really feel like it was an answer and all it did was confirm the one thing I was terrified of - that there was nothing to do to stop it. (Other than trying beta-blockers, which are pretty heavy meds when my tremor is, for now, pretty minor) I wanted to at least explore some avenues, could it be this, could it be that, rather than just - it's probably this - I don't work very well in maybes, I need definite's (Although I'm well aware these are often hard to come by or even impossible). Of course, by this point I really couldn't get my thoughts straight in order to articulate that and I just wanted to get out of there, feeling a bit stupid for crying. So my doctor kindly suggested that I contact him in a few days after i've had time to think.
I don't know what to think, to be honest.
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